[	Current Mood	|	reflective	]
[	Music Playing	|	Breaking Benjamin - Rain && Offspring - The Kids Aren't Righ	]

can't sleep. I was going to play WoW tonight but I didn't, sigh. I picked up my Dad's cold too, damn sniffling and everything. I don't see how though since we are never in the same room for more then 3 minutes. We are so different from each other. He has gills and breaths carbon dioxide.

[	Current Mood	|	calm like a bomb	]
[	Music Playing	|	Breaking Benjamin - So Cold && Project 86 - Solace	]

aven't updated in awhile so I thought I would take this time to reflect on a few of my thoughts in the last couple of days and things that just have been bothering me in general.

urrently just finished watching "Full Metal Jacket." I dunno what it is but I have been popping in more movies then usual. Yesterday I watched "Hamburger Hill" and "Wind Talkers." Full Metal Jacket is kind of funny when you see Gomer Pyle being shit on by his drill instructor. I think that's how my Dad sees me in the military as a Gomer Pyle. "Why aren't you exercising Tony?" Hrrrrm maybe its because I ran yesterday with my recruiter. When your watching Gomer Pylee getting shit on you slowly see him go insane but what I don't understand is he accomplished his goal, he graduated from Marine boot camp and made Infantry and then he goes off and does something stupid and wastes his drill instructor. *Shakes head* He survived and he ruins his life because his own psych couldn't handle the punishment. Hamburger Hill isn't as sophisticated as Full Metal Jacket but there is one line that made me think. A private talked about how lucky people were to dodge the draft and go to Canada and the sergeant overhead this. He said, "If you don't wanna kill then don't, I don't care if you don't want to shoot your rifle, but I want your ass in the grass with me." It was brilliant.

nother thing that bothers me is people's personal obessions with graphical user interfaces (GUI's). These days people put down good programming because it doesn't come with flashy skins or "cute" colors. It's fucking stupid. Your desktop has to match and each icon has to have its own color scheme. It's stupid as hell. Personally, if it were up to me everything would be done in command line interface (CLI) and everyone's screen would be black and white with Fixedsys font. Rape everyone's individuality and give them conformity.

s it me or can girls not understand L337. I don't know what it is but when you send messages in L337 they are half-ass like "h3y s3xy" or "h3ll0." That is not leet, that is n00b shite. In true leet the only English letters you use are z, j, and q. There are different variations but those three letters are always acceptable. It's not hard to understand its just some bullshit hacker language that is slowly becoming popular Internet culture. Nonetheless, if you are female reading this you be my guest and run this back to me in English. It's a little phrase I came up with myself. "61|2|_5 |)0|\|7 5|D34|< |_337, 61|2|_5 347 |\/|34T." Hint: Look at the picture.

a ha, it's 2:00 A.M. how time fucking flies. Well I should be getting to bed seeing how I have another grrrrrreat day of school. I hope you rot in hell Mrs. Springston.

erry Christmas everyone and a Happy New Year. Sadly my Dad doesn't plan on renewing our cable Internet service so I won't have Internet for a long awhile. *Sigh* I'll have a couple more days of usage before we are disconnecting. I may be on from time to time to check my mail at a friends house.

La8er,

Tony.

[	Current Mood	|	confused	]
[	Music Playing	|	Project 86 - A Shadow On Me	]

was reading </b></a>hellocaptain's journal and it made me think a lot. It's so true. Completely true. It affects me more ways then one. A lot of times I turned my back on people that I once cared about and liked. I hate those people know. My hate for them is unending. My hate for my enemies is eternal. I've held grudges against people for so long I forget why I hated them to begin with. But I don't ever forgive them, I continue to hate them because I know that they did something to me and I don't want to forgive them. Forgiveness is hard for me. Love doesn't fuel me, hate fuels me. Its the reason I haven't been to church in a year and four months. It's the reason I don't pray anymore. Its why sometimes I turn my back on my faith that I so long have grown up with. I hate forgiveness. I hate being burned and hurt. I hate having to force a smile and tell them its okay that they hurt you. I can't stand it. It's a weakness. I can't stand such a weakness. I want to crush them and make them cry. I want them to hate and despise me. Revenge is my weapon. Quiet and solemn revenge. I am not used to forgiving and its something that I can never do.

oday was stressing. I am waiting for things to let up and they only get worse. I met with my recruiter today. *Sighs.* His workouts are worse then my Dad's. I don't know how I was able to handle it. When he came over I told him I wasn't up for it today and that I wanted to get some sleep. And then when he was half way out the door, my Dad suddently appears; the shadow of Death. "Sergeant Reeder, what's going on?" Something I try to never do it show my true feelings around my Dad. It doesn't help the situation and it makes me look weak but this time I couldn't help it. When he made me go I had the facial expression of a 14 year old kid that just found out his puppy was hit by a car. Talk about fucked.

lass today was stressing but I managed to get a laugh at my Environmental Science teacher, Ms. Springston. I despise her. She is one of those teachers that acts nice but in truth is just a bitch. Everytime I see her I wanna jump over my desk and cut her face. I don't think she knows how much I hate her although I leave a few hints. When I walk into her class I am usually one of the first ones there and she smiles and says "Hello" or "Good Afternoon" and I ignore her. She doesn't say or do anything although I suspect she would like to grab me and force a greeting. Well, later on a girl went up to Ms. Springston's desk and asked if she could go to the nurse because she claimed she was sick. I don't believe she was faking because she was acting menstrally frustrated the entire period. Ms. Springston told her, "No Sharon, your not allowed to leave the last 20 minutes of class." A few seconds later she puked all over her desk and it got everywhere. It was one of the funniest things I've ever seen. Ms. Springston completely deserved that. That is what she gets for being such a straight-edged bitch.

[	Current Mood	|	optimistic	]
[	Music Playing	|	Staind - Zoe Jane	]

amnit, I'm so tired. I am so exhausted, I need a break. School has been so exhausting. I stayed back the entire week. On Monday, I stayed back for Geometry, on Tuesday I stayed back for FBLA, on Wednesday I stayed back for Newspaper, and today I had to talk to my Army recruiter and he said he is putting me on a weight training and execise program to get me ready to pass the MEPS physical. It's so fun...Now I have a recruiter yelling and pushing me while I am running with him and I got my Dad a few hours later telling me to get my fat ass outside to go and do a physical activity.

ome fucked up shit happened today. I was sitting outside on a bench and I see a bunch of guys start pushing this kid around. I watching them push him and something instead me got angry about it. I don't know why but it did. I decided to try and stop it. I have no idea why, I would never do something like this. I never try to help strangers, I usually just watch or walk away without a care in the world. When I approached the kids they ignored me and continued torturing the boy. They didn't look at me, they didn't expect me to do anything. I recognized one of the guys, I didn't know him but I've seen him around. I never pictured him beating up defenceless little geeks. I stepped in, I pushed one of the guys back and I brought the kid to his feet. One of them yelled, "What the fuck man, why don't you mind your own business?" I answered, "Stay off him or I am gonna stab your ass." I was ready to pull out my knife and a security guard came running out the front of the building. He approached me and asked me what I was doing. The people who started it told him that he was trying to start a fight, that they were hanging around and I came up there starting trouble. I was going to explain to the security guard that I was helping someone from getting beat up but I looked around and the kid was gone. I saw him walking towards the door of the building. The security guard told me to come with him to the discipline office. I recieved an afterschool detention for it, partly because my record is so clean. He was looking through his file and found no infractions with my name on them. He asked me what I was doing and he said I don't seem like the person that would start fights with other people. I didn't say anything and he dismissed me. I was to embarassed. What was I suppose to tell him, that I stuck up for someone who I didn't even know and he let me burn. I don't understand.

verything has been kinda shitty. I've been so tired and stressed. I thought this week was gonna be a relaxer and I would be able to pursue my revenge but I can't even find time to start the project. I think I am changing, changing into something weak. My stomach hurts when I see people getting picked on, I am tired through out the day and naps don't help at all, and worst of all I can't even get back at the people that tried to hurt me. I am getting soft and I don't like it.

opefully things will get better, until then I will remain viligiliant.

[	Current Mood	|	content	]
[	Music Playing	|	KoRn - Slept So Long	]

Haven't updated in awhile so I thought I would before my journal ends up growing cobwebs on it. I am proud to say that I am fully recovered and I feel strong again. My body is not sore and my bruises are healing and they don't hurt when you poke them. The next thing I will need to do is find those people and bring the heat. I will start this project tomorrow.

My weekend has been very nice considering a few bad things that has happened. And hopefully my project will be successful.

La8er.

[	Current Mood	|	pissed off	]
[	Music Playing	|	SlipKnot - Surfacing	]

Death To A Sinner

Benjamin H. "Ben" Riddick Jr., 42, of the 300 block of Fort Worth Ave., died Nov. 23, 2004, in DePaul Hospital. A native of Portsmouth, he had worked for the City of Norfolk Public Schools as the supervisor of security for Norview High School for four years and was a former member of Garden of Prayer Temple Worship Center, Norfolk. Mr. Riddick was a member of the NAACP and other organizations and a U.S. Army veteran. He is survived by his wife, Gail Riddick; a daughter, two sons, Christopher Jackson and Marquis Jackson.

Oh no...How sad, Mr. Riddick is dead. I'm rather glad, bastard deserved it. All I here is sobs and all I see is crying. What a piece of shit that man was. "Supervisor Of Security" psssssssh all he did was shit on people and give people Saturday school. I hated him and I was hardly a victim. Burn in hell you asshole.

Fondest Memories

Walking out the lunchroom I close the cap on my water tightly.

Riddick:    "No drinks are allowed outside of the commons."

Me:          It's water, I have a sore throat and the doctor reco---

Riddick:   Its not my problem, if you don't throw that bottle in the garbage I am going to refer you to Discipline.

Me:         I'm not throwing it away.

Riddick: Writes notes on a notepad. Go to the Discipline, here's your pass.

After being inspected at a random search, Mr. Riddick finds contraban.

Riddick:   Finds cellphone and a pack of Newports.  What the hell, cigerettes aren't allowed on school grounds.

Me:          Takes cellphone and the cigerettes. I'm 18, I am allowed to have them.

Riddick:   You know its illegal to interferre with a random search. No your not allowed to have them, they are illegal on school grounds.

Me:          I had them secure and put away and you pigs come in and make everything roudy messing my shit up.

Riddick:  I don't like your mouth. Your going down to Discipline and as for these we are confiscating them until further notice.

Me:         Your not taking my shit. I don't care what you pigs do.

Riddick:  Hats off in the building.

Me:        Pretending he didn't hear the command he continues walking.

Riddick:  You heard me, take your hat off.

Me:        Turns the corner and hauls ass.

Riddick:  Begins to chase the person.

Me:        Takes off hat and sits on the stairwell.

Riddick:  Passes myself and continues down the stairs.

Me:        Brief moment of silence and says in his head.    I didn't know pigs were color blind.

Final Thoughts

I knew Mr. Riddick as an unkind discriminate bastard. I never liked him and to say something good about him in his time of death would be uncoth. I will remember him to what he truly was, a piece of shit. Burn in hell you piece of shit, burn in fucking hell.

[	Current Mood	|	wtf	]
[	Music Playing	|	The Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright	]

Wtf was I thinking. Damn it. I feel so fucking horrible. I feel like a stone cold layer of dead fucking skin.

osairuto (11:35:34 PM): hey
Kegmaster Chen (11:36:03 PM): What's up?
osairuto (11:36:15 PM): just woke up
osairuto (11:36:22 PM): didnt expect u to be on
osairuto (11:36:30 PM): ur usually asleep
Kegmaster Chen (11:36:58 PM): Early to bed, early to rise.
osairuto (11:37:15 PM): we dont have school tomorrow silly
Kegmaster Chen (11:37:32 PM): I have to go and work.
osairuto (11:37:39 PM): oh...
Kegmaster Chen (11:37:59 PM): What?
osairuto (11:38:12 PM): i dunno
osairuto (11:38:39 PM): i wanted u to come over tomorrow
Kegmaster Chen (11:39:04 PM): What time?
osairuto (11:40:13 PM): when r u gonna be home
Kegmaster Chen (11:40:23 PM): Maybe around 3.
osairuto (11:41:04 PM): oh
osairuto (11:41:15 PM): i guess ill be home
Kegmaster Chen (11:42:43 PM): Yea.
osairuto (11:44:33 PM): y r u so quiet
osairuto (11:44:42 PM): is something wrong
Kegmaster Chen (11:44:50 PM): I dunno.
osairuto (11:45:48 PM): r u okay
Kegmaster Chen (11:45:58 PM): Yea I'm not sure.
Kegmaster Chen (11:47:19 PM): I dunno if I can come over tomorrow.
osairuto (11:47:36 PM): oh
osairuto (11:48:36 PM): um okay
Kegmaster Chen (11:50:28 PM): I need to talk to you.
osairuto (11:50:38 PM): k wat?
Kegmaster Chen (11:51:08 PM): I think we should break up.
osairuto (11:51:38 PM): wtf
osairuto (11:51:51 PM): u jerk.
osairuto (11:52:08 PM): u totally just ruined my mood
osairuto (11:52:25 PM): plz tell me ur joking
osairuto (11:52:46 PM): fucking answer me
Kegmaster Chen (11:54:30 PM): I don't know what to tell you.
Kegmaster Chen (11:54:57 PM): I can't say what I want to without making it sound harsh.
osairuto (11:55:30 PM): damn you
osairuto (11:55:54 PM): wat is your problem
osairuto (11:56:22 PM): stop hitting backspace u jerk and just type it
Kegmaster Chen (11:57:31 PM): Its hard to deal with you.
Kegmaster Chen (11:58:02 PM): Your always reserved and shy.
Kegmaster Chen (11:58:14 PM): You never want to go out and all you do is stay home.
Kegmaster Chen (11:58:42 PM): At first I thought that's why I liked you but now its not really what I am looking for.
osairuto (11:59:25 PM): do u like hurting peoples feelings
osairuto (12:00:15 AM): i really liked u, u were nice to me
osairuto (12:00:53 AM): im so stupid. i bought you a gift thats y i wanted u to come over
osairuto (12:01:04 AM): ur really disgusting u know that
osairuto (12:02:13 AM): y r u so fucking speechless
osairuto (12:02:31 AM): damn ur pissing me off now
Kegmaster Chen (12:06:02 AM): I really don't know what to say.
osairuto (12:09:10 AM): i hate u
Kegmaster Chen (12:09:45 AM): I know, I'm sorry.
osairuto (12:10:23 AM): geeeeee thanx
osairuto (12:10:31 AM): that made everything all better
osairuto signed off at 12:11:43 AM.

Shit. What the fuck was I smoking. I actually thought doing that would make things better. Fuck. The sad thing is that what I had planned on saying was much worse.

...I am Jack's heart, cold and emotionless.

Poor bastards, never had a chance.

Thats gotta hurt.

Who gets it first?

Jump! Jump!

LOL!

Headshot.

Looking down the barrel of a gun.

1. )    Hilary Clinton
2. )    Jimmy Carter
3. )    Michael Jackson
4. )    Ted Kennedy
5. )    John Hinckley Jr.
6. )    Eminem
7. )    Andrew Wrona
8. )    Peach Mills
9. )    Jon Stewart
10. )    Fidel Castro
11. )    Queen Elizabeth II
12. )    Jean Pierre Raffarin
13. )    Chris Brooks
14. )    John Ashcroft
15. )    Elton John
16. )    Britney Spears
17. )    Jose Luis Rodriguez
18. )    Kofi Annan
19. )    Every Active Member Of PETA
20. )    Mark Allan
21. )    Jim Bowles
22. )    Angela Trefethen
23. )    Mary Jones
24. )    Teresa Street
25. )    Leon Kennedy
26. )    Katrina Claire
27. )    Bill Nye
28. )    John Kerry
29. )    John Edwards
30. )    Trey Parker
31. )    Matt Stone
32. )    Ben Affleck
33. )    Maiev Shadowsong
34. )    Diana Lewinsky
35. )    Andy Dick
36. )    Joel Madden
37. )    Benji Madden
38. )    Billy Martin
39. )    Paul Thomas
40. )    Chris Wilson
41. )    Fred Durst
42. )    Pierre Bouvier
43. )    Chuck Comeau
44. )    David Desrosiers
45. )    Sebastian Lefebvre
46. )    Jeff Stinco
47. )    Rebecca Chambers
48. )    William Shatner
49. )    Tom Green
50. )    Cameron Hardy
51. )    Avril Lavigne
52. )    Hilary Duff
53. )    Michael Moore
54. )    John Damen
55. )    Simon (Enraged)
56. )    Trowa Barton
57. )    Josh Mayer
58. )    David Bowie
59. )    The Donna's
60. )    Lars Ulrich

[	Current Mood	|	ecstatic	]
[	Music Playing	|	KoRn - Somebody Someone	]

I voted for Bush yesterday. Pretty much I already knew my state (Virginia) was going to vote Republican. The last time they voted for a Dummycrat was in the 60's for Lyndon B. Johnson. Four More Years Of This Shit! Hell yea lets get involved.

I actually expected it to be a close race. I mean with all this anti-bush liberal propaganda circling round and round. And all these free concerts artists are giving out in support of John Kerry. Its actually a surprise to me that Bush won so easily, I come home from school and Kerry is giving his defeated speech. The truth is: Republicans control America once again. They control the House Of Representatives and the Senate. The Democrats lost 4 seats in both the House and the Senate. And the former liberal leader of the Democratic Party, Tom Daschle lost his seat in Congress. Four more years, I can't wait.

And for all you people that disagree with Bush and America you can go to Canada. You'll fit right in if your a liberal. Its practically a liberal state and health care is free. I think America would be much better if all the liberals left. Go play in Canada while we fight wars in Iraq.

[	Current Mood	|	jolly good	]
[	Music Playing	|	SlipKnot - Spit It Out	]

I've been in a good mood lately so tonight a little wasted but a good mood none the less. Before I tell you about my wonderful and exciting night I will talk about a few events that happened to me this weekend.

Its official. On Friday an Army recruiter came and talked to me and my Dad. During the entire time I could tell my Dad was uneasy and wanted to throw up but I really bought into his presentation. I wanted to join before I even saw a recruiter and pretty much he just convinced me. Faster promotion rate then the rest of the armed forces, money for college programs after, and a very handsome retirement. My Dad constantly interupted the man trying to compare the Army to the Navy and the recruiter made a very valid point, "Personally I couldn't stand being confined to a ship for 6 months." I agree whole heartedly.

One major thing the recruiter talked to me about was what I'd like to do in the Army. My Dad desperately tried to convince him of showing me jobs that are non-combatant. I didn't argue I just watched the videos he had on his laptop of people working inside and in desk jobs and pretty much involved in a safe and stress-free environment. I told the recruiter nonchalantly to play the Infantry video and he did. It was pretty interesting. "You will work long hours and be able to handle the M16A3 rifle, the SAW squad machine gun, and the M60 light machine gun, you will also become proficient with grenades, hand to hand, and urban tactics." I knew pretty much my Dad would want to steer clear of that job. You could see the fear in my father's eyes as he stared at the horrible actors stepping out of their freshly clean humvee and falling into formation...It was repulsive. The recruiter asked me if I was interested in that and I said, "Nah. Not really." And he laughed, "Oh you afraid to go to Iraq eh." And I answered, "Nah not really I just want to try something a bit more interesting." I could hear the sigh of relief my Dad let out invisibly as I looked through the Army brochure. Then I asked, "What is Explosive Ordinance Disposal." I swear I asked it like a naive school girl, I know what Explosive Disposal is, Its those people that have their nuts screwed on tight and walk around with mine detectors hoping that they don't step on one. He laughed, "Ahhhh that is the poor brave souls that play with explosives." He played the video and it was extremely interesting. It started off showing a group of soldiers in a classroom environment learning about different types of explosives and then it talked about removing landmines and providing consultation for how to ship explosive ordinance cargos and the video ended with learning about nuclear devices and people in those dorky ass level 3 body armor suits that defuse bombs. I was sold, I told him that's what I wanna do. I looked at my Dad, I thought he had a heart attack when I said that. It was funny but I didn't laugh I just smiled and told him that's what I wanna do. The recruiter set me up for the ASVAB test next week and said that when I pass he'll be back to put me in his workout program to make sure I ass the physical training test, (BAH, pussy shit.) Afterwards my Dad had a talk with me about my job decision. He said that EOD is crazy and dangerous. I assured him and lied, "You don't see much combat you are in an isolated environment clearing mines with sophisticated equipment." And he came back with some bullshit excuse and I told him that is what I wanna do and I am not changing my mind. Then he brought up going to college once again. "Oh I can morgage the house and take out a loan," was one of the notable things I remember from the pointless argument. Eventually he figured he couldn't win and just said, "Oh well I support you I just don't want you to make a stupid decision." Lol, stupid decision, this is the best decision I've ever made in my life.

Tonight was nice, I went to a Halloween Gathering at a friends house. Pretty much it was a bunch of people I didn't know drinking alcohol in the backyard and playing loud music. I met someone nice, her name is Amber. and we talked a lot and then we fucked because we were so drunk. Ha ha nah I'm joking we talked alot though. She goes to Maury the preppy kid high school. She doesn't fit any of the stereotypes I had thought she would though. She is interested in the same music I am into and she isn't full of her self or over exasperated on how much crack she did last night like most Maury girls I've met. I ended up leaving early but we traded numbers which was nice. I might actually consider calling her.

Another thing that makes me smile about this week is how fast its going to roll by. We have school tomorrow and then on Tuesday we don't because of the election, (I'm voting for Bush) and then on Thursday and Friday we don't have school. Its going to be nice, I like having days off.

I have been trying to figure out my undying obession with dying. Jazmine says that I have an obession with my death and am currently seeking a self-fullfilling prophecy. Basically it means I am purposely trying to get myself killed. As ridicilous as it sounds it is a bit true but its not like I am trying to but then again I'm not doing anything to stop it. I've already got this idea in my mind that my destiny is set, my fate is sealed and I will just have to go with the flow. Well I've checked out a book called "Death Inside Out" by Peter Steinfels and Robert M. Veatch. It's pretty interesting. "There is no nobility and dignity in caring for the dying, but not in dying itself" "At most we convey only the liberty to die with human dignity." I never realized death was such an opinioned subject and although I may learn nothing about my obession with it, its a rather interesting read.

Well I am getting off now, its 10:07 but it would actually be 11:00 right now. Thank you Daylight Saving Time! I get an extra hour of sleep.

[	Current Mood	|	good	]
[	Music Playing	|	Chevelle - Vitamin R	]

Haven't updated in awhile, nothing much has been going on lately. I have been downloading a lot of things off IRC and my friend introduced me to Torrent. He said that web torrenting is going to be the next wave of cyber pirating and he's right. With one click I am downloading every episode of Family Guy. All 3 seasons, 300+ episodes, 7GB. Its going to take me about 3 days but it will be completely worth it.

An Army recruiter called my Dad the other day and he actually scheduled an appointment. I think he was feeling sick or was mistaken because its not in his character to take my side. Nonetheless, I will take full advantage of this opportunity.

I got my voter registration card today. No sorry, it did not come with a silly Rock The Vote T-shirt and sticker. I swear that silly program is politically biased. I am proudly voting for Bush. "Bush is a prick, he's evil, he's a panzy." Say what you want but in my opinion he's much better then John Kerry. John Kerry is a hypocrite. He served in Vietnam and earned a Bronze Star, a Silver Star, and three Purple Hearts. I don't think his military career is at all questionable but what is questionable is what he did after. He returned to the U.S. and spoke out against the war and put down Veterans. He marched with Hanoi Jane Fonda. How can he talk about supporting the military and talk about honoring Veterans when he isn't an honorable Veteran. Another thing that makes him a hypocrite is his wife. John Kerry says that he is going to do his best to limit outsourcing. He is going to cut the tax loop holes and give incentives for American business to stay in America. That's real noble except for the fact that his wife's company "Heniz" is one of the top outsourced companies in the U.S. It makes no sense.

[	Current Mood	|	jubilant	]
[	Music Playing	|	Atreyu - Lip Gloss And Black	]

Stolen from the muddy banks of wishka.

ANGER

1. Who did you last get angry with?: My cousin KC. That girl has no manners, what kind of person leaves a jar of peanut butter wide open on a porch. The damn thing turned into an ant hill.

2. What is your weapon of choice?: 45 caliber H&K USP.

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: Yes.

4. How about of the same sex?: Yes.

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: I can't remember at the moment.

6. What is your pet peeve?: People who have dirty hands and finger nails, people who waste food, and people who drive like shit.

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?: I hold grudges for a long time.

SL0TH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in along time?: Work on Shak's Wesker picture, I'm sorry dear.

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?: 6:00 P.M. I think I was really sick.

3. Name a person you've been meaning to call: Christie.

4. What is the last lame excuse you made?: "I was late because I had to take a shit." *Gasps* "Tony if you continue to use that language in my classroom I am going to have to report you to discipline.

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)?: Not really but I will admit some of them are pretty interesting.

6. When was the last time you got a good workout?: Yesterday, and last Friday.

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?: None, I turn my alarm off.

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?: Tequila.

2. Meat eaters: Steak, Deer Tripe, and Deer Meat.

3. What/when is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?: Maybe every 2 or 3 weeks I'll get plastered off my ass but its nothing serious. I drink socially anyway.

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?: Hell no. And to all you low-carb counting pro-Atkins dickheads, try keeping carbs out of your system for a month, you will collapse.

5. Do you have an issue with your weight?: No.

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?: Salty and spicy.
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7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "LUNCH?": No. I quite enjoy the company of children and house pets, unless they are cats or spoiled brats.

LUST

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?: 6

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?: 12

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at a member of the opposite sex?: Always

5. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?: I wish.

6. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?: Nope.

7. Is love at first sight really lust?: No but sex the first night is lust.

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own?: None, I have a debit card though.

2. What's your guilty pleasure store?: Swords and Knives and GameStop.

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?: Super uber rich.

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: Abso-fucking-lutely.

6. Have you ever stolen anything?: Yea, me and my friends shoplift for fun. We even made up our own shoplifting game.

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?: 6,000.

PRIDE

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?: I guess get my CNA certification, my MOUS certification, and my A+ certification.

2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?: Do well in school.

3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: Own a multi-national corrupt conglomerate.

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?: Depends on how hard I worked.

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?: Yeah, mostly.

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?: Yeah, just yesterday I copied my friends Math Quiz. Thanx Rainee.

7. What did you do today that you're proud of?: I sold $35 dollars of cigarettes to a 14 year old Freshman. And I scored at 93 on my Science test.

ENVY

1. What item (or characteristic) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?: Nothing I can think of at the moment.

2. Who would you want to go on "trading spaces" with?: I despise that stupid show.

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?: Oswald Spencer.

4. Have you ever been cheated on?: Twice, not a big deal, it wasn't a serious relationship anyway.

5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?: I want black eyes and I want to have a really strong sense of hearing and smell.

6. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?: Greed.

[	Current Mood	|	contemplative	]
[	Music Playing	|	Nirvana - Come As You Are	]

I got my interium report for my grades today. All A's except for a B. My Environmental Science teacher decided that I don't deserve an "A" because I do all my work and hand it in on time and I score above 90% proficiency on the test. She is trying to prevent me from graduating with honors and that is unacceptable. I am going to do something really destructive to her or her property. Something good will come to me and she will pay, stupid bitch.

I saw Robert today at school. He had an arm cast on and a shoulder sling. He seemed different a bit different but nonetheless I was relieved to see him alive and breathing. We didn't talk much and I still don't know exactly went on. I need to schedule a meeting with them so things can be explained and clarified. I have been absent on my duties and didn't do much to prevent it except tell them not to play with fire.

Ethics was one of the topics we discussed and had to write about today in English. A pretty hypocritical subject if you ask me. "Do the right thing" is often told as a guideline for right and wrong but so is, "I am not hurting anyone so its not wrong."  People quickly change their opinions when they can't stomach it. I don't think right and wrong can be defined because people tend to create their own definitions or express them from their religion.

Reese's Pieces pwn you all.

                                                                  [  I am Jack's guilty pleasure, I am responsible for his late night urges.  ]

[	Current Mood	|	sympathetic	]
[	Music Playing	|	Puddle Of Mudd - Control	]

I get a call about 9:00 from one of my pushers telling me that Robert is in the hospital and he has been shot. It was Mark and he sounded scared. I asked what happened and he studdered talking about people coming out from nowhere and they ran but Robert got hit and they had to take him to the hospital. He told me that his blood was all over his car and he didn't think Robert was going to make it.

This kind of situation was inevitable. I told them something like this would happen if they kept fucking with other people. They go around provoking people on the street and now one of them got bit. You don't just get into peoples faces all the time and expect them to not do nothing back. Fucking middle class white kids dressing like thugs walking down streets pointing guns at people. I suppose you can't blame it all on him, the money fuels your ego.

[   I am Jack's ego, I am his conciet, I am his self-importance, I am his killer.  ]

[	Current Mood	|	restless	]
[	Music Playing	|	Staind - Zoe Jane	]

I AM JACK'S UNWANTED OBESSION: I TOIL HIM AT NIGHT

Obession: Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.

Anxiety: A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties.

"Well that is what an obession is, like you decided at random with little or no supporting evidence on a theory which was highly superstitious and set about to have a self fullfilling prophecy..." --Shakahnna